Writing

Trudging Towards the Light!

I HATE the way I’ve been feeling lately, but I am DETERMINED to get better. I got closure on a previous relationship last night. It was extremely painful, but I am finally going to be able to let go. Somehow, through that pain I was able to go out & run today, & tonight I started a great new motivational book called Atomic Habits by James Clear. I am working on rekindling my passion for life & the person I once was. I am a Leo & I want to be that roaring lioness once more. I am going to retrain my mind to be the person I wish to become. So stay tuned because there is more on that to come. Also, I WILL be working on the podcast I promised to start a while back. Thank you for your patience with me through my dark period. ❤

 

Morose

I haven’t been feeling myself lately, & for that I am truly sorry! I haven’t been writing at all lately, not for quite some time. I decided to do something about that tonight. This poem just goes to show that no one is happy & positive all the time. No matter how hard we may try, we all get down. We all have bad days. We all go through slumps. Sometimes what we need is solidarity. To know that we are not alone. I am hoping that maybe someone can relate to what I wrote tonight. No matter what you may be feeling, I promise you there is someone out there who feels the same way! So today I decided to write. I knew what came out of my fingertips wouldn’t be joyful. But, writing has always been my escape. It is what makes me, me. I knew that the longer I put off writing the longer I’d feel dead inside. So I did the only thing I knew to do & let me mind escape from my head onto the page. ❤ This was the result:

Once a girl full of wonder

Now mobile, breathing corpse

Go to work, then come home

Nothing happens but remorse

 

Holidays are nonexistent

Feelings just the same

Eating to postpone the grave

In this body devoid of flame

 

Her life perceived as over

No writing & no thoughts

Ceasing to create her own

How can this cycle be stopped?

 

Swept into imaginary worlds

Through books & in her dreams

Scrolling through her phone

Wasting time staring at memes

 

What happened to the soul

That sparkled like a diamond 

In the society, which is rough?

 

Her light diminished

Her world now dark

When will it be enough?

 

They say the spirit is eternal

That it goes beyond the grave

But, what happens when the spirit

Becomes the body’s slave?

Emerging Poets 2019~Published!

Today “Mississippi’s Best Emerging Poets 2019: An Anthology” was published by Z Publishing. My poem is first in the Inspiration section! 🙂 Please check it out. If you would like to purchase a copy, please use my referral link below so that I receive credit. I greatly appreciate it! Thank you as always! ❤

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Z Publishing Emerging Poet 2019

Hello everyone!

I would like to sincerely apologize for my recent absence for which I have no valid excuse. I suppose I have been lacking motivation. But, what does that even mean? It means I’ve been lazy. & for that I would like to apologize to my readers. Please accept my apology, & let’s move forward!

Today I was bestowed the great honor of having one of my poems selected for publishing! Z Publishing House will be printing my poem “Positivity is a Virus” in their Emerging Poets of 2019 series. You can find it in the Mississippi edition available December 7th. I received a draft of the book tonight & I was elated to find that my poem was FIRST in the “Inspiration” category. I am ecstatic for this opportunity & hope everyone goes out & purchases a copy!

Thank you to my loyal followers & anyone who just happened upon this page by chance. I hope you too will find my writing captivating enough to stick around. Only up from here! ❤

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You can purchase the book at ZPublishingHouse.com

Kimily’s Korner

New venture in the works! I have been told numerous times lately that reading is going out of style. People are reading less & listening/watching more. Kimily’s Korner will be a continuation of my blog’s “Inspiration” page in the form of a vlog/podcast. I will be focusing on positivity, motivation, & inspiration. I believe a healthy mindset cultivates a happy life & I am hoping to help people with that. Below is the link to my first (intro) YouTube video. It is short & sweet. I look forward to exploring these new forms of media & encourage you to follow my journey! ❤

Hem of God’s Garment

I once heard that the sun rays peeking through the clouds was the hem of God’s garment. I thought “Wow! That’s incredible. If I could just reach up & touch it I would be healed, saved from my sinful lifestyle.” It took me a long time to realize that I didn’t have to reach up to touch it, missing it. As the sun rays kiss the earth so God’s love extends down to rescue those on the ground.

It’s not a matter of distance, or not being able to reach. It’s about being able to get around the clouds of evil temptation. Temptation will try to block you out, prevent you from seeing the light. But, he always has access to you, no matter how far away from him you may stray. You may feel yourself sinking into the earth. He can reach from the heavens even into the pits of Hell. He created the earth, why wouldn’t he have access to it & all the beings on it? Just as positivity gives life, presiding above negativity, which poisons & buries the soul; so Heaven surrounds us & rises up above while Hell is stationed beneath us. If we invite him, God is within us. He warms us like the sun warms a cat basking in a windowsill.

From a nonreligious perspective, positivity is always there. Clouds of negativity & negative people will try to block it from you. You can’t let them win. You have to rise above those clouds to seek the positivity beyond. Chase the rays where they are touching the ground, they can lead you to more sunshine or positivity & give you a direct path to a higher perspective. ❤

Unworthy (religious)

As the heavy rain falls down

It seems my world may end

I inhale the water & drown

‘Cause it’s better than living with what I did

I wish this was holy water

To wash away my sins

But instead this rain makes mud

So thick that I need fins

I don’t pray for a life raft

To save my evil soul

Instead I slit my own neck

Creating gills through which to blow

My God, My Father, I do not deserve your grace

I completely understand if you look into my face

As I reach your kingdom’s gates

& you banish me to Hell

I will not be surprised 

I won’t fight I won’t yell

My insides have turned toxic

My gut begins to rot

I won’t accept forgiveness

My stomach is a knot

Swelling from the inside

Soon to burst like a balloon

Spraying my wicked ways

Like confetti across the room

I should be quarantined

To protect others from my flesh

But I know that you forgive me

& my slate has been refreshed

There is no amount of gratitude 

To thank you for your love

I will never be worthy

I should be disposed of ~Kimily Trehern

We are not worthy of God’s love, or the gift of His son. No matter what we do, or don’t do, that will never change. No matter how good we think we are, we will never be deserving. No matter how horrible of a person we consider ourselves, he loves us anyways. The free gift of eternal life is quite literally priceless. So when you feel like you could never be forgiven, think again. You have unlimited chances. Your soul is precious. Use your mistakes to learn from. Then let go. ❤

Self Published… FINALLY

I finally did it! I typed, formatted, & (self) published my first book. A collection of my poetry from the last 10-15 years or so. I am more proud of some works than others, however, it is all a part of who I am. You can now download an ebook version or a hardcopy by following the link below. I apologize for some of the formatting being off. It was my first time doing this & I was so excited to complete the project I probably didn’t focus on that as much as I should have… Please check it out, buy it, share it… Let’s get the word out! I’ll be starting on my next book soon. It will be focused on the power of positive thinking. ❤

http://www.blurb.com/b/9293428-random-bits-of-my-brain

 

 

Hardened Hearts & LOVE

A few days ago my friend posted a quote that touched a nerve & inspired me to write. I’m posting the quote below, along with what I wrote later that evening. I wasn’t sure I was ready to post it on my blog, but I have since changed my mind. 🙂 Feel free to share your thoughts. ❤

“Strength is not staring into the face of love with a hardened heart, it is staring into the face of hardened hearts with love.”

Not all hearts are hard

They’re just afraid of love

But those hearts that are hard

Can be restored with love

 

Love is a powerful thing

It can heal or it can wound

It depends how it’s presented

If it hurts or if it soothes

 

Hearts are malleable objects

They’re molded by circumstance

They take the shape of the space between

Each loving blow & painful lance

 

Warm moments leave bubbles

Where the heart swells wide with joy

Cold hours leave deep craters

That sink in from tissue destroyed

 

Where a soft heart has been injured

It is not filled with any air

This makes it difficult to breathe

It’s rigid it is impaired

 

When love is applied to a hardened heart

It heats & smooths the shell

It allows the air to rise within

& restore the outward bell

 

A heart, which has loved

& then been torn apart

Will look upon this subject

& feel afraid to start

 

Yet, when we look with love

At those hearts turned into stone

We can melt & shape them over

’Til they know they’re not alone

 

So look upon each heart

Shining love on every side

& do not fear to enter love

With your own heart open wide